Trust

Have you ever attended a church service that you felt was planned out just for you? I did yesterday. Lately, my life has been pretty hectic. I've always wanted to be a doctor and until lately it has kind of been a far away dream. Even my first two years of college it still seemed far away because I was just taking general classes that I wouldn't really need for the rest of my life. But now, I'm a junior. This semester has been the hardest semester I've ever been through and I'm starting to learn things that I will need to remember forever if I'm going to be a good doctor. Not only that, but in a few months I will take a huge test that will pretty much determine whether or not I get into medical school. I also have to start figuring out what medical schools I want to possibly go to and apply to. All of this has been weighing heavily on my mind lately. I haven't been sleeping well because I just lay in my bed and think about the future wondering how I'm gonna get everything accomplished and how its all going to work out. This brings me back to the church service yesterday. When the worship team had finished singing, the pastor got up and began singing an old hymn about trusting God. It immediately struck me and I knew it was something I needed to hear. We also had a special singer from the Brooklyn Tabernacle sing a song and the words to her song came from Jeremiah 29:11 - all about how God had a plan and it was joined with a song about how we don't need to worry because God has everything under control. As silly as it sounds, I didn't even realize that I haven't been trusting God with my future until I heard those songs. I know God has called me to be a doctor so I need to trust that He is going to provide me with everything I need to become that. I know that's not going to make my classes easier and I won't automatically get As without studying, but I do know that as long as I keeping putting forth my best effort and believing in God and his call on my life, He is going to make it happen. Even now as I'm sitting in New Testament class (I really am paying attention), I'm thinking about everything I have to do this week. I have 5 (possibly 6) tests this week and I'm kinda freaking out about it! But I know that God is going to give me the strength to study like I need to and to make it through. Sometimes, I like to adopt a verse for certain times in my life. This week, I have decided its going to be 2 Corinthians 12:9: "But he said to me, 'My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.' Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me." So this week, I'm not going to concentrate on everything I need to do and how my weaknesses are going to get me through, but I'm going to concentrate on God's power getting me through and I challenge you to do the same!